Year 2007,
I created this blog.
Looking back, I realised something.
Things have changed a lot.

I suppose its ironic that i once said i disliked 3D.
For now, at this point of my life, i suddenly miss this class a lot.
3D/4D, this is truly the best class i had.
Ever.
But with this thought is also the knowledge that things will never be the same again.
The moments i adore, the lessons i enjoy, the jokes that we share.
The friends that i love.
They will change.

I don't want to believe this, i don't want to know this.
But as they say, the truth is often ugly.
How true that is.

And i realise it most now, at this moment.
When i suddenly decide to look through all my old posts.
I saw, that my writing style was completely different.
And i lived in a world that is very different from the one i am currently in.
I wasn't sad, i wasn't troubled, i wasn't lonely.
But i wasn't happy either.

The things i blog about was different too.
Mostly i blogged about the troubles i had with Zi Jie.
It feels so weird now, mentioning his name.
Although now, his name carries a different meaning.
No longer do i hate him, do i dislike him.
Im already over that.
But besides that, i also blogged a lot about two people.
Kun Xian and Wei Siang.
Its been a long long time since their name appeared here as well.
Funny how the people that were my best friends now seem so far and distant.
And would the same happen...?
Im afraid i already know the answer...

What can i give to return everything back to the way it was?
To allow me to have anything i want?
Because there is only one thing i want.
Only one.

Year 2009,
December 15, i lay on my bed, typing this out.
The time that elapsed is the time i will never forget.
And it is the time i will always keep in my heart.
Because this is the time i discovered what happiness is.
And thus discovered ,too, the lack of happiness...
Tonight, as i lay under the soft glow of the moonlight,
I shall end my blog with this last post.
Perhaps i may revisit this place again and start posting,
I do not know.
But for now, before i say goodbye, i just want to say,
That what i miss and want is just too much to describe with words.
That they will slowly, and quietly, erode my heart away from inside...




~For some life lasts a short while, but the memories it holds last forever~

Why is it that you still dont understand how i feel?